I decided not to trust myself.

Although no, that's not true, I didn't decide anything, and I never really had any particular trust in myself. Rather, I understood that it's not worth trusting anything within me, nor anything that comes from me. My thoughts, my words, my appearance. However, one can be certain that my actions, past and future, are pure evil. I was the embodiment of evil.

What I did decide was to stay in my own den. And one more thing I understood was that I would remain here for a long time. A very long time. Forever. I was immortal.